Its been a while

So I figure no one really reads this and i can pretty much say whatever I want. I can't shake this latest bout of depression. I am pretty cojvinced that it is from living at home. there is so much to do all the time. People think that not working must be so nice, but i have 3,500 sq ft, two people in wheel chairs, and a drunk to take care of. Even if i did find someone worth my time, I wouldnt have the time for them. I am not really lonely... i didn't mean to sound that way. i just want some irresponcibility. About two months ago my life was great... but then my mom moved in and life has gone to hell. she just creates so much work... i look forward to cooking dinner everynight because i will get to sit down and eat it! i find that there are certain things that make the day go by a little better. Started this new ESOL class, OMG I LOVE IT!! never thgouth i would like them better than ESE, but it is close. I get to spend the day with them tommorrow. thats nice. well, i am not as sad as i sound, just frustrated and confused. I want to move out so that i can be 25 again... but then again my grandparents need me so much, they would have trouble getting along with out me. And I shouldnt feel that way b/c my mom lives here now.... she should be reliable but she is more of a liability. Then there is the living conditions... I would never be abel to afford anything like i have now. the water, my wing of the house, no bills.... do i have it made? i guess that is what is really bothering me.... sounds like i live in heaven and i do, monetarily. I just dont know if it is worth being a full time house keeper/ personal servant. the grandparents are cool, they make ya feel appriciated .... but mom makes me feel like i work here or something. frustrated, thats what it is, not depressed i guess. i wonder if i paid rent somewhere if i could get my mom to live there... thats a great idea!! I wonder if she will go for it.....